I’m Pregnant and Worried About My Weight
There are a lot of things that go through your mind when you find out that you are pregnant.
Excitement, fear, wonder, awe. Maybe even a misgiving or two.
But if you're anything like me, you are always thinking something along the lines of:
Oh my gosh, I'm going to get so fat.
Unfortunately, I am not one of those skinny pregnant people. I don't magically sprout a belly while the rest of me stays slim and trim. (Mostly, because I struggle with being slim and trim when I'm non-pregnant, too …)
I really want to be able to enjoy this pregnancy, seeing as it is most likely my last, but I'm having a hard time seeing past the feeling that I am already disgusted with my body.
I gain weight. A lot of weight. I've gained 40, 39, and 50 pounds, respectively, with each of my pregnancies, with my last one—my only boy—obviously being my hardest. My son was a July baby and weighed 9 pounds and 2 ounces, which had a lot to do with it, but still.
That weight still hasn't come off.
I had slowly been working at shedding that weight. I was easing back into running, taking some classes with my sister, and I was just feeling like I was hitting my groove where I could really get my body back when I found out I was pregnant again.
And I'm struggling.
I really want to be able to enjoy this pregnancy, seeing as it is most likely my last, but I'm having a hard time seeing past the feeling that I am already disgusted with my body. I already look way more pregnant than I should because that pooch was already there, and I'm just not sucking it in now, and I'm dreading going through another summer pregnancy—this time until the end of August!
It's a hard balance as mothers, isn't it? The struggle to enjoy our babies, even while we struggle with our own changing bodies and self-images? In those fragile postpartum days, I know I should be focused on enjoying my newborn, but deep down, I will also be struggling with how I look.
Right now, I'm just trying to stay positive. I've been using the elliptical more often now that the morning sickness is receding, and I ordered a new ballet pregnancy workout that looks like a lot of fun. I'm visualizing eating healthy and staying toned during my pregnancy and hoping that will help. And a summer pregnancy just means lots of excuses to swim, which is great for you, right?
And when in doubt, I always try to remember the wise, wise words of a nurse I once worked with. She had five—count 'em, five—sons back to back to back to back to back and struggled a lot with her weight during that time. When I knew her though, she was incredibly, incredibly fit and toned; the very picture of health that I would love to be. And she let me in on a little secret to get me through my body struggles during pregnancy. She said,
“Chaunie, you have the rest of your life to get in shape. Really. So right now, just focus on enjoying those babies.”
And seeing her, I'm starting to realize, she was totally right.
Did you struggle with a lot of weight gain during your pregnancy? How do you maintain a healthy body image?