Ever Get Stuck in a Rut?
I am sort of like an ultra boring robotic zombie. In fact, I remind myself of Rosey, the robot maid from ‘The Jetsons.' Pretty much, every day of the week, my body and mind are programmed to do certain things in a certain order at certain times, in effort to run the day to day operations of the home and take care of the 4 kids in a manner which I feel is as efficient as possible.
I admit that when my schedule gets thrown off – or when something ruins my plans – I often feel ‘off' and even nervous for the rest of the day. I think it would be fair to say that I am sort of stuck in a rut; that I have BECOME the routine, and have become complacent about looking for new things to be passionate about.
Seriously, when you are raising a family – who the heck has the time to be passionate? Right!?
Luckily for me, I have kids to remind me.
Last week, my youngest daughter had a field trip at school where the parents were invited. Of course I went, but of course my mind was reeling with all the things I had to do that weren't getting done because I was at the pumpkin patch.
When the field trip was over my 5 year old wanted to go on a joy ride. She had seen a huge lake, complete with swans and ducks, on the ride in on the school bus that she wanted to go check out. There was a home that had a huge Easter Bunny (yeah, go figure) dressed up as a turkey in their front yard. She saw a field of sunflowers that still stood tall, slowly wilting, and she wanted to stop and pick some seeds. And in one of the pastures that she passed on her bus ride, there was a mama horse with a newborn foal, still stumbling around on tender legs that she wanted to see. She rambled on and on about all the AMAZING things she saw from the windows of the bus on her way to the pumpkin patch.
Funny thing (or sad thing, depending upon how you look at it) is that I followed the bus, and I DID NOT NOTICE A SINGLE ONE OF THESE THINGS! NOT ONE!
Obviously, my mind was in other places. My thoughts preoccupied my driving. I was talking on my cell phone on the way to the pumpkin patch. I was trying to come up with ways to make up for this ‘lost time.' Truth is that I, like many adults, was just going through the motions, stuck in a rut of existing but not really being passionate.
Since we had extra time, I indulged my daughter’s whims and we rode around truly looking at all these amazing things. I saw them through HER eyes. I watched her dance under sunflower stalks that towered over her. We took pictures of the enormous and ridiculous pink ceramic bunny dressed as a turkey. We stopped and bought bread to feed the ducks and the swans and we tried for a half hour to get the newborn foal to come visit us at the fence.
We drove around together, her passion for life leading the way with her pointing out puffy clouds and words she was learning to read on signs, and I realized the many, many things that I must miss on a daily basis. But mostly, I realized that it was this passion for life that was missing.
We took the road less traveled that day. And as always, I realized that while I am here as a teacher for my daughters – they are truly the real teachers in my life. And I feel blessed to be their student!
Do you ever get stuck in a rut? What are some things you do to get yourself out of it so you can literally "Stop and smell the roses!"